Monday, glorious Monday. A cold one to wake up to too. Sadly the grass has not turned crisp and frosty white though. I always find that a beautiful sight to see when surrounding fields are just pure white - be it from frost or from snowfall - they always look picturesque.

I've been getting a bit bored recently with the current playlist on my mobile device (I can't walk down the town to and from my day programmes and/or meetings without some sort of music playing), so I spent a few moments rejigging what... [read more]

You may or may not have heard of the Crispin-Buxley Phenomenon and if you have not then you are probably wondering what it actually is.

In all honesty, I do not know what it is myself. Simple really. However you have probably come across this article after doing a Google search because you had been asked the question 'Are you familiar with the Crispin-Buxley phenomenon?' on the paid-survey website Prolific and was wondering what on Earth it actually was.

I have sat down and thought about what this could be and all I can think of... [read more]

Following on from my previous blog post on here, you are aware that I finished my detox programme at 9am on Monday 22nd October. I will continue to document what I am doing from there on, as there seems to be interest in what I am doing. So here we go.

After leaving rehab at 9am on Monday morning, we scooted back home where I was able to have a quick shave (as my shaver had been confiscated upon my arrival, so I wasn't about to shave during my fortnight stay) and also drop... [read more]

Well, the day cometh.

Woke up at 7am, had the morning meeting at 7:30am, followed by breakfast, then made sure everything was all packed up and forms were filled in. Had my medication for the morning, then sat around waiting.

I was sat in the living room area, then two of the others clocked a car on the drive, they looked out the window and one of them said "Ooo it's a nice piece of gash", I looked out the window and having clocked that it was The Mother, I exclaimed to this other that that... [read more]

Jeez, my last full day already! These two weeks have flown by far too quickly.

Breakfast was really nice, scrambled eggs on toast (coated in Marmite), then we got ready for Church. Church was fun again. Got back and had dinner, which was beef and rice-n-peas, cauliflower and roasties. A different mixture of things, but it worked and was absolutely lovely.

The sun was shining, so after a heavy lunch, we had a nice chill in the garden. Relaxed until about 6pm then went out for a long walk down the seafront.

Passed 7 'triggers' with no... [read more]

Saturday, it is the weekend so not much in the way of groups now. I woke up pretty much as the alarm went off this morning, so was bright-eyed and bushy-tailed at 7am. Had the morning meeting, a few fags and coffees and breakfast.

After breakfast we headed to the Centre for the first of two groups. The first consisted of individually picking out a random piece of laminated paper with a word on it from an envelope and then explain what it means to/for us, then we repeated this another two times and when... [read more]

Well, Friday, it did not start the best. I woke up four times during the night pissing myself (not laughing, but urinating), so I am glad I still have enough adult nappies to hand. So due to the interrupted sleep, I did end up accidentally missing the morning meeting by 15 minutes.

After breakfast we headed to the Centre to start the day with a P&D session - what a session to start the day on. As usual, it was very deep and as it was to be my last one, I opened up even... [read more]

Morning!

Well, thank goodness for these adult nappies, I woke up having had an accident at a daft time in the morning, was not sure what the actual time was because it was pitch black and I did not wish to wake the other person in my room by turning the light on to check the clock).

First group of the day was 'Change of Objectives' (we're set certain goals to do the previous week, and should try to fulfil them - I did all but one of mine). This is a group that a majority... [read more]

Another day waking up sober and without any withdrawal symptoms, no problems sleeping and feeling really greatful of the chance I have been given to make myself so much better.

It is Wednesday, so i will be calling The Mother later on. There is still a lot of uncertainty regarding the whole move malarkey and also what happens when I leave, some things are in place but not really set in stone. I think we're just going with the scenario that I will be in Weston-super-Mare, so a day programme will be what I will... [read more]

7am trying to lift myself out of bed, well that was a mission in itself. My ribs (left side) were a 7/10 on the painscale, so I decided to roll out of bed instead. It was the only way I could get up for the morning meeting at 7:30am.

Had the morning meeting and breakfast along with meds, I did mention about the pain to the staff. They advised me that I see the doctor, so we went to the Centre and had a visit from a gentleman that spoke to us that came from... [read more]